I live life erratically and I have trouble settling down. I have trouble being just content and accepting of my current situation. I am one of those people that are always looking for the next thing to do. You could refer to this condition as chronic dissatisfaction because those of us who suffer from it are always thinking that the grass might be greener on the other side.

This is an aspect of my personality that I have trouble understanding and I constantly question; I do not have clear my true motives behind this constant search but I just feel an immense urge to keep on looking.

I am in a search for something and I just do not what is it.  But aren’t we all?

We are all looking for something and that  is the motor and the soul of our journey on this earth. It has been lately that It occurred to me that what I am worried about is that I won’t accomplish anything at all if I remain still when I am not content and satisfied.

I have a  burning passion inside of me that is telling me that I should continue looking and digging deeper until I find that meaningful life that I aim for. I want to make count  this lifetime, I want to make a difference, I want to contribute, I want to leave a legacy.

I am deeply scared of leading a directionless and empty existence. This is the fear that keeps me moving and that doesn’t allow me to settle in peace.

But what kind of legacy could one leave?

I think this is one of the many reasons why people have children. They feel that their offspring is a continuation of their lives, a legacy, a piece of them that will remain once they are gone. But is that a good approach after all? Is it right to bring children into a household where meaning and purpose are absent? What kind of teachings are you going to pass on to your children if you haven’t figured it out yourself?

I think this will bring even more misery, discontent and anxiety to a society that is crying for settler minds.

So as I ponder on this legacy subject I realize that I want to touch as many lives as possible that I want to perform meaningful work on a daily basis, that I want to contribute to society and that I want to become part of the so called evolution.

How can I do that ?

What kind of work can I do so that my yearnings for  purpose get fulfilled?

This is a tough question; one that Is taking me a while to figure out. This is a question that can’t be slide under the carpet and forgotten because it always comes back to haunt me.

I will continue on exploring his work but I just finished reading Freedom and I wanted to share some of the quotes and extracts that I consider worth mentioning.

Responsibility

• You can have freedom. But the cost is to accept responsibility in its totality.
• Without responsibility you only grow older you do not grow up
• Only a person who is really free can surrender
• God, fate, destiny are all in the same category: throwing your responsibility onto something that does not exist.
• Fate is a beautiful ointment and freely available.

 God

•  It is good thing that God is deaf. He doesn’t hear prayers; otherwise you all will be in trouble.
• I should have thought before I started the search: what am I going to do with God?
• Your prayer will create your troubles; because in prayers you will be so romantic asking for great things you cannot live by. But God is deaf on purpose- So that your prayers cannot be heard and you can enjoy both, your miserable life and your beautiful prayers.

Love

• The moment love becomes a relationship it becomes bondage, because there are expectations and there are demands and frustrations.
• Love demands nothing it simply shares
• I want a world of individuals. Even the world couple hurts me because two individuals have been destroyed

Potential

• There is not a single person who has come into the world empty
• Unless you become a creator in some way you will become empty and sad.
• Whenever you follow your potential, you always become the best. Whenever you go astray from the potential you remain mediocre
• The whole society consists of mediocre people for the simple reason that nobody is what he was destined to be.

Social Conditioning

• Conditioning is murder, spontaneity is killed
• In controlling yourself you miss the whole point of being alive
• Either you become erotic or you become neurotic
• Awareness is the key if you become aware everything follows
• Man is born with a soul but not with a self. The self is created by the society it’s a substitute for your identity.
• You must destroy the self to become one with your soul

Revolution

• Revolution is of the crowd; rebellion is of the individual
• You become obsessed with something you are against it and then there is every possibility that the thing you are against will dominate you.

Miscelaneous

• There is no future if you don’t create it. And whatsoever is going to be tomorrow is going to be your creation. And it has to be done today, now because out of today, today’s womb tomorrow will be born
• Truth is realized through three states: assimilation, independence and creativity.
•  I don’t want to be a believer. I want to be a knower. Only my experience can satisfy me, can fulfill my search, can give me trust in existence.
•  Assimilate more. There is no need to be confined by your own people. Be a citizen of the planet earth.

Do they love it?

Do they feel proud of their accomplishments?

Do they give their best at every moment?

Have they become what they were supposed to?

I am nobody to judge their very unique and personal situations but as for me I know that If I stay here ignoring the inner voice that drives my passions I wont be able to say in 15 years from today that I lived up to my potential.

I just hope that I am learning all of my lessons while I am here but I can’t wait for this phase to be over.

 I cant wait to leave CubicleVille

Although we all struggle with different things the end result is the same. We either, accept it and face our struggle with a fearless attitude or we keep on fighting it until it breaks us down.

We do not have to hit rock bottom to take action

Start today. Accept your struggle and work with it to become better a person instead of becoming a victim of your own weakness.

“Pain is the path”

A little food for the tought is always very much appreciated so I decided to write about  the ones that I find interesting.

Here are some cool quotes from The Matrix:

• I dont like the idea of not being in control of my life (disbelief of fate)
• Is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth
• We are all slaves born into bondage into a prison for your own mind
• You can stay in wonderland and I’ll show you how deep the rabbit hole goes
• Time is always against us
• Residual self image is the mental projection of your digital self
• Dont Think you are, Know you are
• Let it all go Fear doubt Disbelief free your mind
• Your mind makes it real the body cannot believe without the mind
• Are you ready to be unplugged?
• Inside the matrix they are everyone and they are noone
• I tought It was real……your mind makes it real
• There is a difference between knowing the path and walking the path
• Im going to show you a world where anything is possible where we go from there is a choice I leave to you
• The moon looks bigger on the horizon even though we know it isn’t

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Chapter 3 Power 

• It is your ability to consciously and deliberately create the world around you.
• If you neglect your needs, you may physically die; if you neglect your desires, you lower your consciousness and feel dead on the inside.
• With power you become a conscious creator without it you can be no more than a passive victim of your reality.
• The sooner you recognize that total responsibility is inescapable, the better off you’ll be. If you try to deny or escape the burden of responsibility, It will only come back to hunt you later.
• Accepting full responsibility of your life means being willing to do what is necessary to create the outcome that you want.
• You must actively make your life happen instead of passively letting it play out.
• Your human will is far stronger than any obstacle in your path.
• Desire is the fuel of power. When you deny your desires you fall out of alignment with truth, love and power. You must accept your desires as they come no matter how strange they must seem.
• Most people are out of touch with their desires and they settle for what they think they can get.
• Don’t succumb to the illusion of false desire. Only true desire summons the power.
• You never need to justify what you want. You want what you want and that is enough.
• The only rule is that no matter what happens you are responsible
• True power exists only in the present.
• Time is not a disposable resource. You can’t spend time; No matter what you do or don’t do time passes on its own. Your only choice is how you direct your source in the present.
• The point of goal setting is to improve the quality of your present –moment reality.
• Set goals that make you feel powerful, motivated and driven when you focus on them long before the final outcome is actually achieved.
• Instead of going after goals you think will make you happy in the distant future , focus on goals that make you happy right now.
• You simply need a burning desire to start taking action. If you aren’t driven to act, it means your intentions are weak because you are trying to create something that you do not want badly enough.
• Self discipline is the willingness to do what it takes to achieve the results you want regardless of your mood.
• Motivation and self discipline are the twin tools of power.
• Its wonderful to set goals knowing that you can trust yourself to do what it takes to achieve it.
• Cowardice is the practice of using your power to feed your fears instead of your desires
• Focus your attention in what you want not in what you don’t want
• Your problems exist to help you grow not to drown you down.

As soon as I got home I put on the news and I was bombarded with all kinds of swine flu alerts. It was crazy considering that I had just come from there and people seemed to be very lax or at least they didn’t mention it.
But wait because it gets worse. When I checked my voicemail I found a message from my boss saying the following “hope you had fun in Mexico but I need you to get a clean bill of health from the doctor before showing up to work tomorrow”!!! say whatttttt????I mean I felt fine and believe me I would be the first one to decide to stay home if I knew I could be a threat to my coworkers. To make a long story short I have not been able to go to work for the past 3 days because they required some lab work and that will not be ready until Friday. I understand their concern but this makes absolute no sense to me.

The press has created a state of panic among the community. I have started to question the nature of all this. I heard from my doctor yesterday that there is a shortage of surgical masks because the demand has skyrocketed since all this craziness started. People are running to the ER to get tested as soon as they sneeze. And of course all pharmaceutical companies are selling “preventive medicine” (taking the medicine does not guarantee you wont get it) by the pound.

Our collective consciousness has been affected and this could have a tragic effect far worse than the flu itself. If all of your attention is on the flu chances are you are going to get it.
I understand the safety measures and I am all for them but there is no need for the drama and the fatalism:

Reporting case incidents and numbers multiple times a day on radio and TV?
Talking about a pandemic?
Talking people into buying preventive medicine?

I hope you get my point. As members of this raw food community I believe that most of us understand the importance of collective consciousness.
Every one of us should be aware of the following:

1. Building up the immune system will be the best bet to avoid disease
2. Immune system build up does not happen over night and it does not come in the form of a pill
3. It is good to be informed and to be safe but we should not panic. I have decided to avoid the news altogether.
4. I know this may sound a little rough but the truth is that we are all going to die someday. It will happen the way and the day is supposed to happen no matter how many surgical masks we put on. So there is ultimately nothing to be afraid of.

I still do not have any symptoms and at this point I don’t think I will get it but I just hope that we as a community could stop being manipulated and would become more capable of making our own judgments and decisions.